Hello Orange Rain,
I know, if I give up now. All those hungry nights are just for nothing. It's so difficult to lose 1 KG, but just eating one night full can gain it completely back. It's not fair but this is the way it is. Every night when I go to sleep hungry, at least I'm happy.
My 動力 is same like yours.所有人都罵我胖! And I have ALWAYS been the BIG GIRL. they see that I can't lose weight for 10 years....so they tell me ""well, it's OK, you don't live in Taiwan, you are skinny abroad anyway"" but that's so stupid right? I will always be ME where-ever I am. To think it's OK to be fat abroad is totally crazy...Fat is fat, wherever I am. But I know they just try to make me feel better. But I couldn't feel better for myself. Also I have really small boobs (A-B cup only) So if I have a big ass and big legs, I look even worse!! :-((((
I also do it for myself. This is my own project, actually my 10 years project already, I've never come so far except this time, so I'm going to do my best.